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This Is Dedicated To You My King Sisters and Brothers 7/9/11 4:44 PM
Thursday night Ron was transferred to Kindred Hospital. It is a small facility known for it's wound care and respiratory teams. The goal is to heal his wounds and lungs, slowly build up his upper body strength to deal with the paralysis and help him make a smooth transition to home when his body is ready. This is a huge milestone and I am so happy knowing this is his last stop before finally coming home. They put a bed in his room for me to sleep in, but the hospital noises and nightly interruptions made it impossible for me to sleep. Ron can tune it out because he's so used to it, but not me. After 2 days without sleep, I fell into a deep depression. I couldn't snap out of it. I felt guilty because all I could do was cry and feel sad when I should be happy at his progress. I felt useless because he is surrounded by people who are helping him now more than ever and I just seemed to be in the way. I felt angry at Ron for snapping at me several times and seeming not to appreciate anything I have been through. He was rarely talking to me, just staring into space or at the t.v. and I was hurting so deeply I just had to leave yesterday, hardly even saying good-by to him.
So I came here looking for solace and trying to make sense out of why I was feeling so down. Shouldn't this be one of our happier times? I wrote to some of you who were online and as always received an abundance of love, support and prayers. You lifted me up enough to make me realize I am not alone in any way and I never have been through this whole ordeal. I started last night reading my blog from the beginning when Ron was first hospitalized back in October. From the moment we found out that his aneurysm was growing and required a surgery that he most likely couldn't survive, you, my King friends have been my source of strength and comfort. You have all prayed me through this, you have lifted me and Ron up to God in prayer when we couldn't pray for ourselves. Through all the ups and downs when I wanted to just give up, when Ron was hanging on by a thread, you all were our lifelines. Your prayers, your faith, your confidence in God and the human spirit never once quit on us. You've been there through it all with us, cried with us, rejoiced with us.
Reading back in time has helped me see how how far we have really come. It has helped me realize that Ron and I are both human and very frail at times, but God has provided the source for our renewal. He provided it through all of you who refused to give up, who persistently lifted us up to Him in prayer. How can I say thank you to such a group of people as you? Most of you don't even know me or Ron personally, but you have been there for us like family. I love you all like my own sisters and brothers and will forever be grateful that my loving Father in Heaven has blessed me with my King family (God being the King.)
I am feeling better after reading my blog and all your responses from beginning to end. I'm ready to go back to the hospital and care for Ron in any way I can, to continue in our quest to get him home as soon as possible and to understand how much he is still suffering. I know he needs me. I know I need him. 1 + 1= 1. That will never change. We are one. We are in this together. This last phase of our journey, I dedicate to all of you, my "King" friends. Thank you all for proving to me that God is faithful no matter what, that prayer IS the answer, and that friends are a gift from God. I love you and appreciate you ALL so very much. Always, your Sister in Christ, Kathleen
So I came here looking for solace and trying to make sense out of why I was feeling so down. Shouldn't this be one of our happier times? I wrote to some of you who were online and as always received an abundance of love, support and prayers. You lifted me up enough to make me realize I am not alone in any way and I never have been through this whole ordeal. I started last night reading my blog from the beginning when Ron was first hospitalized back in October. From the moment we found out that his aneurysm was growing and required a surgery that he most likely couldn't survive, you, my King friends have been my source of strength and comfort. You have all prayed me through this, you have lifted me and Ron up to God in prayer when we couldn't pray for ourselves. Through all the ups and downs when I wanted to just give up, when Ron was hanging on by a thread, you all were our lifelines. Your prayers, your faith, your confidence in God and the human spirit never once quit on us. You've been there through it all with us, cried with us, rejoiced with us.
Reading back in time has helped me see how how far we have really come. It has helped me realize that Ron and I are both human and very frail at times, but God has provided the source for our renewal. He provided it through all of you who refused to give up, who persistently lifted us up to Him in prayer. How can I say thank you to such a group of people as you? Most of you don't even know me or Ron personally, but you have been there for us like family. I love you all like my own sisters and brothers and will forever be grateful that my loving Father in Heaven has blessed me with my King family (God being the King.)
I am feeling better after reading my blog and all your responses from beginning to end. I'm ready to go back to the hospital and care for Ron in any way I can, to continue in our quest to get him home as soon as possible and to understand how much he is still suffering. I know he needs me. I know I need him. 1 + 1= 1. That will never change. We are one. We are in this together. This last phase of our journey, I dedicate to all of you, my "King" friends. Thank you all for proving to me that God is faithful no matter what, that prayer IS the answer, and that friends are a gift from God. I love you and appreciate you ALL so very much. Always, your Sister in Christ, Kathleen
Sis, I'm reading all of all of these messages folks are sending to you and I'm thankful that there are so many people that love and care about you and Ron. You gotta figure Dad smiles from heaven. Stay strong. You're my sister and I love you & Ron
I am so thankful for our mutual King friends that brought me to have you as a King friend. I haven't been playing as much as I used to and I'm so happy to hear that Ron is still with you. Enjoy every moment you have! My prayers and positive thoughts are with you both! Love, Laura
WE ARE ALL STILL PRAYING FOR YOU BOTH HERE IN ORACLE AS WELL. RELAX ,HUN, YOUR DEPRESSION TIME IS ALMOST PAST COMPLETELY NOW AND IT WAS NORMAL. I BELIEVE YOU ARE MORE RELIEVED AT HIS PROGRESS & JUST WANT TO BE MORE A PART OF IT, TALK TO THE DOCTORS I THINK THEY WILL LET YOU HELP MORE,LOVE YA SUZI
At my mom's July 4th party I was approached by several family members and friends who were asking me about you and Ron.They assured me they will continue to pray. I can't say why God has chosen you for all of this, but I do know that your story has touched countless people you may never meet.
Dear Kathleen,None of us are alone even when we think we are. God is always with us and knows what is best. Depression is normal for both you and Ron going through such tramatic times in your lives. They key is to recognize that and know it's a temporary stage in the continuing battle you're both in
Hi again Kathleen it is so good of you to include us like family that I feel like I have known you and Ron a very long time and I am so glad you two have shared with us your most personal lives both up and down it makes tears well up in my eyes I am a caregiver and I know how things are xo :)Roberta